Running has been so painful for me for so long that I just dealt with the fact that I wasnt going to be able to run again. I hated the fact that I was only in my 20’s and having so many knee problems. I couldn’t find a doctor that could tell me what was wrong and why I as having so much pain. Finally after years of thinking it was just me and this was the way my body was and of course double knee surgery, I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I am finally starting to feel like I will be able to be a good runner again.
When I started all this 5 weeks ago it was very difficult for me to run even for 1 minute. My knees hurt so bad and I couldn’t catch my breath, I thought I was going to die. I kept thinking “Your young and you’re not THAT fat, why can’t you do this? 400 pound people can jog for a minute, what is your problem?” I was much more comfortable with a brisk walk than a run. So I would walk a lot more than I ran but I would still run a bit when I could. Mostly I would walk for a few minutes then run for a minute then walk for a few minutes then run for a minute. This is how I have been training my body to run. I then would add extra time to the run side of it. I still do this today.
Yesterday I ran for 5 minutes without stopping. I was so proud of myself. I am still alternating running and walking but I can feel that my body is stronger and I can see that I can run longer and I am not so out of breath while I am running. Yesterday I was walking for 3 minutes and running for 4 minutes and then at the end I pushed myself to 5 minutes of running. It feels great to be able to do this and I have faith that I will be able to run a full 5K soon. For the first time in a long time I am convinced that I can still run and I will do it. My legs are stronger, my knees are stronger and I am stronger. It feels great!
I also have found a book that I have started to read. Its call “Run Like a Mother: How to Get Moving–and Not Lose Your Family, Job, Or Sanity” by Dimity McDowell and Sarah Bowen Shea.
I have to say this book had really gotten my attention. It’s about women who are mothers and are runners and how they fit in running into their lives. I have not finished this book yet so I cannot tell you about it all but I am enjoying what I have read so far. I am also NOT a reader so this book will take me a while to read but hey its all good. On top of that I need to fit this into all the spare time I have during my days.
I also just read on a post today about this book. “Born to Run: A Hidden Tribe, Super athletes, and the Greatest Race the World Has Never Seen” By Christopher McDougall.
This book is about how to run properly. They say most people run with a “heel strike” motion and that is the wrong way to run. This book is about a tribe who can actually run hundreds, yes hundreds, of miles in saddles. I am excited to start reading this one as well. Maybe I can get some pointers on how to run better.
So for the first time in a very, very long time I consider myself a runner. I cant wait to sign up and run my first 5K.